summer break

I have taken a break from the blog these past few weeks, not because I was anywhere but because I was in deep thinking and introspection mode.  Why do I need a platform to show things I do? Or share things I like? Is this pride, or vanity, or just something I like to do that brings me joy? How would I feel if I stopped altogether?

I had to be honest with myself and acknowledge that I had been spending too much line in my online world, and not enough in my real world. I also realized that some of my regular posts started to feel like a chore, a happy one but something I had to do, rather than something I really wanted to do. At the same time, toying with the idea of stopping completely made me incredibly sad. I love writing, and I don’t want to stop.

What I no longer want to do is spend my sunday mornings collating pictures, adding links and proofreading for my sunday news, because, while I’m doing this, I am not with my family. Nobody asked me to do it, I chose to create this so I can now choose to stop it. So I will post when I want to, when I feel like it. Totally the opposite of what you’re supposed to do to have a successful blog. But that’s the thing: I don’t really care about that, and this is not my job. If it was, I would probably do much more clever things, and spend a lot of time on picture quality and so on, and fully transform this into a real digital magazine of some sorts. And maybe I would find it less pleasant too.

So there you are. I’ve been rewriting this text several times, because I’m really not sure what to do. One thing I know: I will not post something because I feel I have to, but because I want to. There might be the same kind of content, or not…I don’t know yet. We’ll see.

In the meantime, I still enjoy reading my favorite blogs on a daily, or weekly, or less frequent basis. Which is another thing I like about the blogging world: some are very prolific or regular, and I enjoy the routine and knowing I can find my favorite topics on a regular basis, others just post when they feel like it and I’m curious to see what they’ve been up to. I don’t have the time or the energy to be in the first category. But I hope you will continue to like what you find here.

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J’ai pris une longue pause ces dernières semaines, non pas que j’étais loin physiquement, mais loin mentalement, prenant le temps de réfléchir et me remettre en question. Pourquoi ai-je besoin d’une plateforme pour montrer ce que je fais, ou ce que j’aime? Est-ce de la fierté, de la superficialité, ou bien juste quelque chose qui m’apporte de la joie? Qu’Est-ce qui se passerait si j’arrêtais complètement?

En étant honnête, j’ai constaté que je passais un peu trop de temps dans mon monde en ligne, et pas assez dans mon monde réel. J’ai aussi réalisé que certains de mes contenus commençaient à devenir plus pesants, comme quelque chose que je devais faire plutôt que quelque chose que je voulais faire. En même temps, l’idée de tout arrêter m’a rendu très triste. J’aime tellement écrire, et je ne veux pas m’arrêter.

Par contre, ce que je ne veux plus faire, c’est passer mes dimanches matins à faire des montages de photos, créer des liens, relire et éditer ma rubrique des nouvelles du dimanche, car pendant tout ce temps, je ne suis pas avec ma famille. Après tout, personne ne me demande de le faire, c’est quelque chose que j’ai choisi, et je peux donc choisir de l’arrêter. Je ne suis pas les règles de l’art pour avoir un blog populaire, mais voilà: je m’en moque un peu, et après tout, ce n’est pas mon travail. J’aimerais que ce le soit, je pourrais vraiment développer mon blog en véritable magazine virtuel, me former sérieusement à la prise de photos et lancer toutes les rubriques que j’ai en tête. Peut-être que je trouverais cela moins agréable aussi.

Donc voilà. J’ai recommencé ce texte tant de fois, parce que je ne suis pas vraiment sûre de ce que je veux faire vraiment. Une chose seulement: je vais continuer de poster ce que j’ai envie de poster, mais pas parce que je sens que je dois le faire. Donc il y aura de la continuité, mais aussi du changement…ou pas. On verra.

En attendant, je me régale toujours à lire mes blogs préférés au quotidien, à la semaine, au mois, ou moins fréquemment. C’est ce que j’aime dans le monde des blogs: certains sont très prolifiques et réguliers, et j’aime retrouver mes rubriques habituelles. Les autres publient moins souvent et je suis toujours curieuse de voir ce qui se passe dans leur vie créative. Je n’ai ni le temps ni l’énergie pour être dans la première catégorie. Mais j’espère que vous continuerez à prendre plaisir à ce que vous trouverez dans cet espace.

 

 

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14 thoughts on “summer break

  1. It’s very weird that you posted this today, as I’ve been thinking similarly about my blog (athough I don’t post as often as you do). I have few followers, I am more devoted to my writing/review/book website than I am my knitting blog, and I started my knitting blog ONLY as a way to not lose my patterns… a definite and ongoing problem of mine. Then I started thinking that I needed to do what others are doing online… portray other designers and patterns, offer new ideas, have monthly interviews from designers… and while I do have a brand new interview ready to go on my site, I realized today/yesterday that I need to keep the knitting blog just for me, for my original purpose.

    Your post has validated my considerations and turned them into a decision. Thank you.
    Jo

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    • Thanks a lot for your feedback, Jo. It helps validate my decision as well 😉 It seems we went through the same steps, adding things or creating regular columns because it felt like the right thing to do, or at least the expected thing for a knitting blog. But when you think about it, there are enough blogs with reviews and news, after all.
      And I just took a look at book review blog, and realized that I don’t read enough about new books, even though reading is such a big part of my life. Thanks for mentioning it.

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      • Validation is a good thing. 🙂 I am truly glad you posted what you did today.

        I can’t get enough of reading. My main goal is writing (I’m working on a non-fiction book at the moment), and reading what other people write is one of the best ways to improve my own writing… while enjoying their stories. 🙂

        Thanks again!

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  2. Hi! Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this; I think it is important to acknowledge that we differ; some will enjoy the everyday blogging while others will cherish the on-and-off interaction. I think sharing is good either ways; and it is important that it not starts to be just-one-more-thing-I-am-behind-with… I know your sentiments myself and also promised myself that it must be fun and adding something into my life, unless I need to stop. So thats why my blog will never be super popular…cannot spend much time online…but still, just after a few months, I have enjoyed to share this fabulous hobby with other people (knitting nerds like me!)! You included! So do not stop sharing, even if it in periods should be very infrequent! Hege

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  3. I’ve been going through a similar period. In the end, I won’t be happy if I give up on my blog, so I’m trying to approach it from a perspective of personal pleasure, which in the end should keep the blog an enjoyable read, right? It seems like quite a few of us have been going through a similar period. I really enjoy your posts, you should know :0)

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    • Thank you Jaqueline. Yes, I had noticed that my blog feed was quieter than usual, but thought it was the vacation effect. Maybe there is something in the air that we are catching: the need to do less, focus on the important and the meaningful…I don’t know, but it feels good to know I’m not the only one feeling it. I love your posts too as well as your great pictures.

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  4. I totally hear you, Agnes! I don’t think there is a single blogger out there that hasn’t grappled with these same feelings at some point of time or another, and they are hard questions to ask of yourself. I think that there is room for a lot of different types of blogs and bloggers, and that ultimately your blog should be what you want it to be about. When blogs are trying to ‘go bigger’, I think that’s when the blogger has made a clear decision to use their blog as a business tool, which could mean that they design, or are dying yarn, or another fiber-related career- all of which require a strong online presence and a lot of razor-sharp social media skills. But that doesn’t mean everyone has to blog that way. You blog the way you want, in the way that makes you happiest!

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    • Thanks Julie, I can see that now, with my small experience. People who have been blogging for a while seem to have found what works for them, so I guess I will find the format that suits me best as I go along. And indeed, when you have a business to go along, it is a different framework altogether.

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  5. l important c est de faire ce que l’on a envie de faire sans contrainte juste en y trouvant du plaisir ….alors j espère que tu alimenteras encore ton blog dans cet esprit là.. ! mais c’est tellement important de consacrer du temps à sa famille à ses amis ….et en garder pour soi aussi……….. je serai toujours heureuse de te lire

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